As you have noticed, i dont use dA at all anymore, actually i dont even use my camera anymore.

Apart from the odd event i go to i havent actually used my camera in about 4months. I havent even thought about it.

Pretty much selling my gear now.

Wont be on here anymore.

Bye.

NEW JOB!! I am finally out of retail, well on the 27th i will have worked my last day. Im now in IT support and im going to love it (i hope!! ). Its so much better in everyway. Ill actually be home or at least in the car before the sunsets now after work, more photography time!!

NPOC? < that what your thinking?

It means Nissan Primera Owners Club. I signed up a few days ago (obviously cause i have Nissan Primera (GT LE!!)) and there is now a meet up of cars in weston where i live. I have been asked to lead the cars around town if needed also. So within a few days, im talking to people, im meeting people and leading people...im scared! Should be great though!!

Ill let you all know how i get on!

Right, this is going to be quite long and personal and there will be swearing and all sorts but i have been told that if i just write out whats been on my mind it will all go away. So here goes...

My girlfriend dumped me about 4months ago after a year and 3months of being together, no big deal, i have accepted that and since i have moved on, been in bed with other girls and so forth, being dumped has never been the problem. The porblem however is what im now finding out since we split up.

When we first got together i was warned by a few people not to trust her and that she will break my heart as she had done so in the past, i completely ignored everyone and went for it. My ex had already slept with 5 people before me since the age of 14 she had been shagging people. Again i looked past this, i didnt really care but obviously at the time i didnt know that all i was was the 6th until the 7th (mark i believe) came along.

When me and beth were together i arranged to go out with a few mates to concerts but then everytime they cancelled on me and it never happened, i even bought tickets once but then had to sell them for cheap because i couldnt go. Why you ask? Because beth had told my friends that i wasnt allowed to go (completely behind my back) and they knew how blind i was then and so they ruined good nights out for my happeness of being with beth. Since then none of my friends at work (bar one who never really knew her) actually detested beth and since all i have heard is how they thought she was just a rich daddies girl who wasnt worth anything, but again for my happiness my friends bit their lips and didnt say anything. (Yes i know my mates rock!).

Beth decides she wants to go to uni and during college she asks if she can use some of my photos to submit in coursework (photographic coursework) and i say yes (BIG MISTAKE!). She used 47 of my photos in her coursework and its submitted and she gets in. I know that this could have not even had an affect on getting into uni but technically the coursework isnt valid, her entry into uni isnt valid and so therefore all her time in uni is fake and she didnt actually get there by working hard and doing her own work. I have always joked about phoning the uni (rotchester) and telling them but theres no point, im going to work hard and not buy my way through my life like her!

So yea, your all probably thinking where i get dumped?

We go on holiday and she dumps me the day before we leave to get back. She tells me that she dumps me for uni, to be single in uni and so she can get her head down and do some work whilst single. I can understand this and i give up easily (in tears) and she leaves me. She was calling this guy when we was away loads and texting him and she tells me that shes been texting him for months and she never told me? WHY? WHAT ARE YOU HIDING???

Single in uni....yea fucking right! A few days before she goes i get told that she has a boyfriend, and i learn that it could be a guy called mark (not mentioning surnames even though i know it) and he lives around the same area as beths uni in kent, uk. So basically she had been cheating on me for months and soon as shes single by lying to me about wanting to be single she goes off shagging this mark guy who shes liked for ages.

To some up, i gave her the completely benefit of the doubt about her whole having sex since 14 with loads of guys to be with her and all i get in return is to be labled as the dickhead who was just another guy in bed!

This girl gets anything if she asks! She gets bought ALL her camera equipment, PS3, 40" TV, Mini One car (AS HER FIRST CAR, thats about £12,000 for first car!) and to top it off she gets bought a house for over £100,000 and she doesnt owe a penny!!

Anyways, i must admit writing this all out has made me feel better, thank you for the advice darlin, you were right.

At the end of the day i didnt care about being dumped, yea it upset me but what fucked me off more was how i was being used until something else came along.

RANT OVER!!

(dont care about spelling mistakes or punctuation in this btw!)